Travel Anxiety

Wow this year is sure flying by isn't it? It's nearly half over!!!! We wait all winter long for summer to get here, then it's here and gone and we're well into Fall before we can ever say "it's finally summer", lol. Our trip to Cuba is falling further and furhter into our past!!! Lately we've been having talks about where we might wnat to go next (hopefully next winter). A couple destinations have come to mind, maybe Mexico or the Dominican. Of course we plan on returning to Cuba one day, but we decided tha tfor our next rip we'll try discovering a new place. My ulitmate goal is Tahiti....but that will have to wait for now _ just a wee bit out of our price range, lol. Europe would also be nice, but again, that will have to wait.

My problem is that I have all these places I want to visit in my life, but after our last flying experience I find myself haveing a lot of anxiety when I think about getting on a plane again. Our flight home from Cuba was less than enjoyable. When we flew over the southern United States, they were apparently having some storms down there and our ride got a weee bit too bumpy for my taste, and I was not the only one who was scared thank you very much. I used to fly quite a bit when I was a kid, back and forth to Toronto to see my grandparnts, but as of late I am not very expereinced with flying anymore so needless to say this was a very scary experience for me. I think what really scares me is that I have no control over the situation, not like if you were in a car and you could get out and walk past the bumpy part of the road or drive around it or jsut choose a different road. When you're up 34,000 feet - there's nowhere to go!!! You have to count on the pilot to choose the best path for your flight and it just seems that it could be so much more unpredictable. I really want to travel a lot in my life but I don't know how to get over this anxiety now. A lot of people seem to handle it quite well and are not bothered, or they just deal with it in a diffent way.

So I guess any advice any of you may have out there would be appreciated, I'm sure there are people that fly a lot more than I do and turbulance is pretty routine to them. I've heard a lot of the same stuff from people such as "Don't let it bother you because there's nothing you can do anyway". I'm sorry, I don't have that kind of inner peace that I can just sit back and pretend I'm not scared out of my mind!!!!!! So what's the answer? Educate myself about flying? Take some good drugs before we fly again? I don't know what to do? All I knwo is that I never used to be a nervous flyer and I never thought I would become one - but now I am and I really need to get over it!! There's so much of the world to see, and I think it would take a really long time to see it all by car/boat, lol. What do you guys think?

Speing Is Back - Again

Well our freak storm has fianlly subsided and the tempurature seems to be getting back to where it should be. It's a bit scary that it didn't even take very long for all the puddles created by all the snow and rain to turn into dry ground again. But I guess that means the farmers can get back out into the fields sooner and finish seeding. Myself, I'm looking forward to planitng my little balcony garden :). I'm very excited that I can have pansies this year, last year in my other apartment my balcony had too much sun to have pansies. Yeah yeah go ahead and laugh, how lame right? Well they're my favorite flower and it's been awhile since I could plant them... so there. I think I'm going to go out this weekend and try to pick a few things up before everything gets too picked over. I'm also growing mint this year, so if anybody wants an authentic Mojito, just stop by :).

Don't get me wrong, but I truly hope that this is the last year I'll have a balcony garden, I'd really like to be thinking about what to plant in my yard next year. But I guess we'll have to see how that goes, time has been flying by so quickly that next spring will be here before we know it. When we moved into our new apartment in January we kind of made a goal that we'd give things a year in that place and then decide if we're going to stay in Lloydminster or not. If we decide that we're staying in Lloydminster I'm hoping that we'll look into buying a house, even if we only decide to stick around here for a couple more years it would be worth it. But if we decide this town has nothing more to offer us, we'll move on. Where? Not too sure on that yet. This decison will really be based on where we're both at in the job situation, whether we're still happy with what we're doing here, or if we think we'd have better luck elsewhere. But either way, my goal is that the next time I move it'll be into a house that I own, I'm already tired of renting. And I know there are some out there that would say "You had a house", but those who really know me will understand why I sold it. Now thanks to that house I have a down payment for another house - a better one - put away. :) For now I guess I can be happy with the fact that I don't have to mow any grass :P.

Well happy spring everyone! I hope the weather keeps getting nicer and nicer.

A Little Bit Sad Today

Why am I sad? Exactly one month ago today was our first day in Cuba :(, I can't beleive how fast the time has gone. I might not be so sad if the weather was a bit nicer.....I heard the radio say "Winter Storm Watch", yep, that's just great. We're supposed to get over 10 cm of snow tonight! Beautiful, just f#%king beautiful. A month ago I was basking in the beautiful warm sunshine, listening to the sound of gentle surf washing up on the beach......"SIGH" . This morning I had to dig out a sweater, resorted to weraing socks again and put my raincoat to good use. What a crappy way to start May off. This is weather I would have expected to see on April 1st, oh well I guess it's not really summer yet. Mother Nature teased us with some summerish wether as usual.....I knew it was too good to be true. Hopefully this will be our only spring "surprise" and it'll be clear sailing from here on. Right now, I really really miss Cuba, I'd give anything to go back, just for a couple of days :(. Oh well time marches on right? I sit here and try to remeber how it felt to be there, the smells, the sounds, the way the air felt, I know that sounds sappy, but it was so hard to leave. I guess I just have to keep thinking that perhaps I'll go back one day, well that is the plan anyway. In the meantime...here's to the snow!!!!!